Excited. Happy. Scared.
I’m thrilled about our growing family but scared too. Right now, life with my two tots is pretty sweet. They play well together, each have their own rooms, they’re close in age so homeschooling will be fun and eventful. I have two hands, two knees, two sides and two children; it works so well. How will this new little addition change things? Am I up to the challenge?
But then I think back to when I was first expecting. I was thrilled of course, but terrified of how life would change. Life with just DH and I was pretty sweet. Was I ready for change? What kind of mother would I be? But Chloe arrived and I had my answer. It turns out I am the kind of mother who loves her little one immensely, who often has no clue what she is doing but who wants to do the best she can.
Oh, those sweet baby days. Mommy and Chloe playing at the park, snuggling on the couch, walking the trails. When Chloe was just over 9 months, the little test showed two lines and I panicked. I wanted little ones close but suddenly, what would life be like? How could I love another little one was much as I loved the sweet one I already had? Oh, the fears and questions! And then John arrived and I learned that love grows and now I was twice as clueless and twice as blessed!
There is comfort in the familiar. Change, no matter how welcome, planned or unplanned, change is scary!
What changes scare you?
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